New Years Resolutions 2011

Considering making some of these.
Not sure how to go about phrasing them.

Definitely something about more blogging/less social networking.

Sort life out. This includes finances, debts, and not taking out any more loans, not even borrowing a tenner.

Get rid of Inara cat. Keep Kaylee cat.

Get small part-time job somewhere doing something moderately interesting for short periods of time. Make sure not to overdo it ;)

Get rid of all negative ppl. This includes me. Get positive.

Do lots of band stuff. Make things. Release these things. Make more things.

Get body back in working order. Find out if its diabetes and fix.

Love lots, cry less, learn to enjoy quiet, laugh the loudest and the longest.

Find cure for aids, instill world peace, and learn to meditate.

And daring to dream, I want a horsey ride, a hot air balloon trip, a tropical holiday, and nation-wide radio airplay.

Shouldn't be too hard...

Lucky

i'm really incredibly lucky, and i wanted to blog about why.

see, my life is quite stressful. i am under quite a bit of stress from day to day.

• i have a five year old who won't quit.

• i have a small amount of money deposited into my bank account every two weeks by the government and an ex husband who is not around to help raise said child. (this money does not make raising child any easier, just slightly cheaper for me.)

• i have an on-again/off-again boyfriend who regularly gets on my nerves, constituting a break-up every so often, resulting in the grim realization that my life is pretty shitty without him, and an amicable resolve of the conflict.

• i have a mother who is overly-involved with the ins and outs of my life, even though I am approaching 28 years on this planet and have kept myself alive for many of those years.

• i have a sister i adore but cannot relate to, nor she to me, ending up in some pretty confusing discussions/arguments which are only put aside by our mutual frustrations associated with our moderately overbearing mother.

• i have three friends i see on a semi-regular basis, one of whom lives next door to me, making me kind of unavoidable, and a bunch of friends i don't seem to see or hear from very often, bar the occasional unsocial socialization of "social networking".

• i have a backlog of vehicular fines, two family loans (don't try THAT one at home, kids!), the worst phone in history, a tiny one-bedroom apartment i share with two cats and aforementioned five year old (who gets the bedroom, while i sleep on the couch), and a history of anxiety/depression.

but i am lucky. and here's why.

• i have the loveliest five year old on the planet. she is caring and thoughtful and funny and helpful. she makes me laugh, and hugs me when i cry. (which i do often!)

• the small amount of money i have allows me to eat, keep a roof over my head, and go see awesome bands from time to time. it also means that doctors and buses are cheaper. (thanks, Centrelink!)

• i have the best man in the world, who doesn't need me to be his "girlfriend" to love me. no matter what's going on in either of our lives, we're there for each other, we love each other, we support each other, and we have better sex than anyone is having. (trust me.)

• my mum is there when i need her, and provides incredible services like short-term money lending, babysitting, and a shoulder to cry on. my sister provides the same. and there is never a doubt in my mind that they love me.

• and when my friends do come out of the woodwork from time to time, we have great catch-ups, and they say nice things about my band, and we laugh and hug and drink and are merry. they also allow me to practice my amateur psychology, which is always a hoot!

And I got to meet my hero once =)

i am lucky. and i am grateful.

<3

The Darlings Update

In my distaste for Android Keyboard (which always reminds me of "ant farm keyboard" and therefore becomes slightly less annoying and slightly more amusing in my head) I TOTALLY forgot to update about what happened after The Darlings debuted.
So here's the news/gossip/update:

We played a quiet open mic night to about 25 onlookers on the 2nd of December. A select few friends were invited, some were strangers, a good mix of both. No one left the room once we started playing. Not only did we hold their attention for half an hour, but there was head nodding and toe tapping! NOTHING makes a musician happier than seeing the audience enjoying themselves, let me tell you!
The word of the evening that was used to describe me (by an audience member) was CAPTIVATING.
Never in my life have I been called that!! That I'm aware of!

So a few days later, I see an ad wanting a band to open SCoRCHeRFeST ( www.scorcherfest.com.au ) boxing day at the Rosemount, at no cost to us, and 50 tix that we can sell to our friends and family, so I entered us, and we won! So we halved the ticket price and all proceeds are going towards our recording next March. Very exciting!

Yes we are officially booked in to Bergerk! Studios next march for recording. I want to do four songs if we have time, at least two. I plan to release two double A side singles by September next year, four songs to be played on the radio by the end of the year, and then record and release an LP. All of these will be available for purchase on thedarlings.bandcamp.com which is our online music store, unfortunately empty at the moment! But hopefully full of goodies by 2012.

I love my band. I look forward to filling you in next time! :-)

New Lyrics

I'm not anybody to you, but I'm someone to me
So just let it go, love, let it go
I might not have what it takes to make your scene
So I'll let it go, love, I'll let it go
I take no ownership and
I ain't gonna take your shit, no no

Look at you, spin-spinning round
Did I catch you off guard?
Big fish in a little pond
Am I making this hard for you?

I'm not who you think I am, or someone I'm not
So just give me time, love, give me time
I mightn't have the connections that you've got
So I'll take my time, love, I'll take my time
I'm not responsible and
I'm not that gullible, no no

Look at you, spin-spinning round
Did I catch you off guard?
Big fish in a little pond
Am I making this hard for you?

Whenever you'll be here
Wherever I go
You'll never be there
For me, I know
This place is just
So goddamned small
For you and I and all
So let it go, love, just let it go.

Look at you, spin-spinning round
Did I catch you off guard?
Big fish in a little pond
Am I making this hard?

I'm gonna watch you spinning round
'Cause I caught you off guard
Big fish in a little pond
Did I make life hard?

Perfect Once

Don't go to sleep just yet
I want to get there first
Lie here, broken
Being held together
One last time

Don't hold your breath just yet
I want to feel it first
Expel, inhale
Breathing in unison
This last time

I promised
I wouldn't
Tell them about us
But I can't keep my word,
Lover.

Please let my tears just fall
On your pillow
Catch them, taste them
Visions of the sea
In my head

Please let the past just be
Disappointment
Don't forget me
Or leave me for dead
In your head

I swore out loud
I wouldn't
Tell them about us
But you know I can't keep
My promises.

I won't tell a lie
Because there was a time
We were blissfully content
(Ergo my lament)

I know I told you
I wouldn't
Tell them about us
But I can't keep that promise,
Lover.

We were Perfect once.

It's Been A Little While...

yes indeed it has.
writing on a teeny tiny android keyboard is not the most efficient way to get your message across, admittedly.

a lot has been going on...
i've started my new band, The Darlings.
we had our first rehearsal on October 20, and became a four-piece on the 13th of November.
we are VERY new, but have some great songs, and I've been working incredibly hard to get us off the ground.
obsessively, you might say.

what a good lookin' group o' cats we turned out to be!

you've got chris, then andy, then me, then scott. photo taken by Chiara Adams @ doublethinkdesign.com.au TALENTED and BEAUTIFUL woman that she is.

we have our first gig at an open mic night next week, testing the waters, so to speak.

wish us luck!!

i shall write more when i'm not falling asleep.

wedding flowers ?



lilac anastasia crysanthemums



joey fern greenery



winter purple double lisianthus







gold strike rose



Catch Up

So after a little break from blogging, it's time to play catch up. Lots has happened in the last two weeks, it seems to have flown by!
I'm still not smoking, nor am I craving cigarettes, either! I'm really happy about it. It's also encouraged me to be active, which I'm loving! I go to the park most days, sometimes twice a day, to work out and play with Lily, sometimes V comes too, it's great. I'm hoping to lose weight from it, although my metabolism is so shot, it might take a little while to show.


Vaughn and I spent our first anniversary together, and got back together, which is good. There didn't seem any point to being broken up, since we still love each other and want to be together. I think we both finally realized that being together or apart doesn't solve anything, and that we can deal with whatever problems that come up together. I don't think he'll ever want to be with me 100%, and I guess that will have to be ok. I love him, and I'd rather have that than be with someone else just so I'd know they're 100% convinced. It's a strange state of affairs, but he brings out the best in me, and I don't want anyone else.


My sister's wedding is in three weeks, and despite my current views on the topic (which are jaded due to my own divorce, and will likely change in time) I'm really happy for her! She has a lovely husband-to-be, and I know they'll be very happy when it's done and dusted. Despite the simplicity of their wedding plans, it's been very stressful for her, with our mum having gone overboard beyond belief in her demands and insistences. I'm just hoping they can enjoy their day, so I'm going to be doing the mum-wrangling for the day. I also get to do the centrepieces for the reception tables, so that's pretty exciting! Pics up after the wedding!


Well, that's enough for now. More soon, I promise. Included is a pic of my new haircut, and a pic pf some pretty rad make-up I did last weekend.
:-)

Quitting Smoking Is Fun

Don't everyone hate me for that title, but it's true. The Easyway method by Alan Carr has made it enjoyable beyond measure!

I've been a pack-a-day smoker for the better (or worse) part of ten years, more usually. Champion Ruby rollies. I was hooked but good. And yet I've now gone three days without so much as a puff, with almost no cravings at all!

See, when you put so much stock in the cigarettes and what you think they're giving you, and you quit for whatever reason, you feel deprived, like you're missing out, like you're giving something up.

But knowing that nicotine is the cause of the problem, not the solution, has made it feel like what it truly was: slavery from addiction!

Nicotine does not aide my stress/boredom/relaxation/concentration, I am creating the need for nicotine by smoking the previous cigarette, and when i light another to relieve my withdrawal pangs, iteaves me free to focus on whatever task is at hand. By removing nicotine from my system, my body will no longer crave it. Not only will lighting up do nothing for me, but it will be putting nicotine back into my system to start the process all over again.

There is no "just one cigarette", just like one drink for an alcoholic. That's it for me. I don't want to waste my life away hating the fact that I smoke and feeling deprived when I can't light up. Non-smokers don't crave nicotine. I didn't need cigarettes ten years ago to enjoy myself or have confidence or to concentrate. And I don't needd them now.

I am free, and loving how it feels!
Everyone talks about how hard quitting smoking is, but when it's this fun, it's not hard at all!

:-)

Pressing Buttons

My former seems to have a button inside him which, when pressed, cuts off all emotional connection at that time.

Wish I knew where it was, so I could avoid pressing it.

And had a massive scream at mum today for being emotionally manipulative.

I also quit smoking today.

? (Lyrics)

You say I bring out the best in you
Why won't you give it to me?
Don't you want to?

You tell me that you love me
You know I love you too
How hard can it be?

I can feel the winds of change
Blowing through my mind
And I find
There's something lingering

How long will you make me wait for you?
How strong do I have to be to pull through?

You say that we're meant to be
Just not right now
Just not right here

And I tell you, tell you, I'm not going anywhere
What do I have to do?
How much should I care?

I can feel the breezes
Kiss my cheek
And I think
There's gotta be more to this.

How long will you make me wait for you?
How strong do I have to be to pull through?

What do I have to say? Who should I listen to?
Don't wanna count the days. When will I be with you?

Honestly I'm willing to give you anything.
Please tell me how much to this table you can bring.
We could be so happy from now on
If you'd just hear this song.

How long will you make me wait for you?
How strong do I have to be to pull through?

Vegan Breakfast Muffins

Following up my vegan cupcakes is the breakfast muffin.

BEHOLD! It is a mixed berry/nut muffin containing no eggs or milk, using wholemeal flour and cane sugar.

Yum yum yum yum yum.

The Weekend

Having a great weekend in bed with V. Despite being broken up, things are still the same between us, and it's awesome to get back to basics.

Lots of laughter, plenty of sexy times, and Breaking Bad season two = happy me.

As to the friends I've seemingly lost, who are playing on my mind and infiltrating my dreams, Fuck You. Your loss.

TWITTER (Lyrics)

There are some things in life I'll never have
Like getting all of that wasted time back
Like having my favourite rockstar fall in love with me
But as for having you, well, we'll see.

There's six whole years I wasted on a husband
I coulda spent those years playing in a rock band.
Like all the parts of me I had that now are long gone
They pulled those teeth, but they didn't take my wisdom.

Regret is something I don't cling to
Respect is something I aspire to
Kismet is something I look forward to
Kisses are all I want from you.

So, what about the fantasy of living?
I know that I'll get back what I've been giving.
Like unabashed, unashamed, unconditional love

Oh, the fast cars all pass me by
And all those private planes, they fly so high
All the lavish treats, expensive feasts and penthouse suites
They're too much for me
But you're enough for me
This might be tough for me
A bit too much to tweet...

There are some things in life I'll never have
Like not having to wait for you to come back.

Making an Ass Out of You and Me

I'm getting a little tired of assumptions being made about me.
As a people lover, a "people person", it really shits me when people assume my intentions, or put their own spin on them, in a negative way.

Maybe I should just put this out there, into the ether, into the vast complexity of the world wide web:
I only ever have the best of intentions, and I do my utmost to never hurt my friends and loved ones, usually at the cost of my own happiness and well-being.

Ok, so I had a conversation with Steve about intentions today, and I happened to say, (I believe I'm quoting myself here,)
"I don't believe in intentions." *

Yes, intentions don't really matter when what you're saying or doing is ALWAYS being perceived - constantly being run through a mind that is very different from your own, and importance or emphasis is being placed accordingly by that person's brain, not yours. So whatever you're intending, it won't always be perceived the way you want it to.

But the rest of it stands. I am forever concerned about not hurting anyone, and assuming that I am an immoral or hurtful person is one of the most painful things I could go through.
When you try your best to show people your heart, and they assume you're trying to dupe them, how can you not take that personally? How can you,in turn, not be hurt?

I don't know how to stop taking this shit personally.

*Incidentally, I got some very strange looks in the shops yesterday when I told Lily "I don't believe in bread."

Going Vegan

This is a decision I made over a year ago, but I was thwarted by my addiction to milk, particularly iced mocha.
I am now taking control of said addiction.
A vegan lifestyle has always appealed to me, even as far back as high school. I've just always had trouble working out what I would eat. So I've taken the plunge anyway, into the deep end, and I figure, I can always find an apple or a carrot if I'm starving!
Hell, even McDonald's sells apples, and they're open 24/7!
SCORE!!!
So here's to my new lifestyle choice, and to so-good chocolate, which is getting me through the mocha cravings!

CUPCAKES

Here is a picture of the vegan cupcakes I made from scratch today.
You can definitely see how bleaching flour and sugar makes cakes prettier, but these ones are pretty yummy, and healthy too!

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

Of course, blood is always the final touch, even if it did take almost a week to wash off my hands. (Damn this spot.)

And a photo with your make-up artist ends the process well, too, although 9 times out of 10 you will look better than she, even when you're dressed as the undead.

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

The Final Result: Mel

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

The Final Result: Heidi

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

Mel's make-up.

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

Heidi's make-up.

80's Prom Night Attacked By Zombies Party

The proshetics

Liquid latex and paper napkins. Ahh the joys of fx make-up.

Loneliness

It's been a while since my last blog. A fair amount has happened. I spent four days without small child while her dad was back in town. Normally I'd soak up that time with V, but with that no longer an option, I spent a good deal of time watching Will and Grace seasons 1 through 6. I did have one day of catching up with friends, which was lovely. Mostly through, I was just plain lonely.

My two girls next door have broken up, with Heidi going back to NSW tonight. It's very sad, not only because I'm losing a buddy to hang with, but for the two of them and what they're going through. Small child and I will miss her terribly.

I've been listening to Alice In Chains a lot. Reminds me of V, especially Nutshell, which played the first time we were together. He and I got together under the worst of circumstances, and yet we were somehow able to make something beautiful. I cry when I hear the song, but it's a good cry. Not so much sad as... reminiscent...

We did end up spending some quality time together last night, and he came for dinner tonight. My hope is strong, and after talking to his best friend Shaun, I know that my trust is not being wasted. He talked of looking for a new job, and my fingers and toes are crossed for him. I hope he can find something he can get excited about. Secretly I'm hoping for a job with better hours! 4am to 12.30pm seems too much to ask. Pastrychef or not.

My sleeping and eating patterns are returning to normal. Now I've got to focus on my weight.

The Break-up

I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you.

But I miss you so much, and Lily does too, and it hardly seems fair to take you away from her when she was never an agreeing member of the break-up.

I'm sleep deprived and mocha wired, this insomnia is killing me, and I wonder if this is how you've felt all this time.

I promised myself I wouldn't see you or contact you when you walked out that door, but everything that happens to me I've always shared with you, and it's become increasingly difficult to put down the phone when something that I'd normally tell you about occurs. I feel weak. I feel lost.

I wonder all the time if things are getting better for you. I find myself guessing how much time you'll take. Wondering if you'll do what it takes to find your way back to me, or if you'll just let it slip away to nothing.

I need sleep.
I need you.

AROUND TOWN (lyrics)

I say, those boots look a little out of place.
My my, don't you talk like it's a race?
Hey, you, you're tryin' so hard, more'n anyone.
Yeah, you, you're tryin' so hard, but are you havin' fun?

Won't somebody tell him he's not a cowboy?!
I hear, if shaken, he's more like a kid's toy.
I don't wanna hear another word.
Have you heard? You're absurd.
Take your hat off, climb down off your high horse
That's the word
Around town.

Indeed, you got your guitar slung all permanent.
And how, you talk your talk like you're sure of it.
Mister, you're lookin' like you in a rodeo.
Yes sir, you're lookin' like you don't know where to go.

Won't somebody tell him he's not a cowboy?!
Don't mistake him for a Dude Ranch FBI decoy.
I don't wanna hear another word,
Have you heard? You're absurd.
Pack your ranch up, quit your line dance class
That's the word
Around town.

Don't you know, anywhere you
You be causin' confusion?
You got the look down-pat, and the way you act
But it's all an illusion
In your head.

Won't somebody tell him he's not a cowboy?!
All tressed up like a man, but he's just a little boy.
You're livin' in the big smoke
Actin' yoke, going broke.
Take your hat off, climb down off your high
You're a joke.

COME BACK (lyrics)

Where did everybody go?
Y'all were here before
Now there's room to park a bus
On my living room floor.
One by one
And two by two
You've left me all alone
And I don't know what to do
With myself.

"Take a pottery class."
I'm no good with my hands unless I'm touching.
"Learn to garden."
I don't know how to plant, there's too much fussing.
Where did you go?
Will I ever know?

Won't you all come back?
I'm sitting by myself
Like a chocolate birthday cake
That's been left up on the shelf
I'm growing old
I'm getting stale
I'll end up in the trash
If I don't learn how to chill
With myself.

"Take time out for you."
I've got too much on, and not enough time.
"Take up fishing."
I'll get my high heels caught in the line.
Where did you go?
I deserve to know.

All I try to be is a good friend
On whom you can depend.
All I wanna know is
Where'd you go?!

"Write that novel."
No one wants to read about despair.
"Go to college."
Wouldn't know what to do once I got there.
"Be spontaneous."
I don't have courage without my friends.
"Learn to live with it."
Won't you please come back again?

Where did you go?
And why'd you hurt me so?

Making Moosik

I need a new band. I don't want to leave my current one, I just need more...

It's already a tough industry to get into, but Perth is especially, partly because it's so isolated.

I had 8 years off, 8 years out of the industry, who knows what I could have achieved in that time?! And although Debbie Harry made it at 30, but it really feels like I'm running out of time.

Maybe this is what a ticking biological clock feels like...

On Love And Loss

So many things going through my head. Yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend of almost a year. This relationship has been the most passionate, enriching, comfortable, joyous partnership I've ever had the pleasure to be a part of. I know I'm going to miss it terribly.

Knowing who Vaughn is very early on prepared me for the possibility of things going awry, but being the incredible romance optimist I am, I think I thought that love could conquer all, and overcome all obstacles. In my heart of hearts, I think I still do.

The two of us have both been through heartbreak before, mine a little more recently than Vaughn's. And we both knew the risk we were taking when we fell in love. The possibility of being hurt was in the forefront of our minds when we took that risk, and still we agreed that being together was worth it.

Now I find myself without him, after weeks of trying to find ways around his sudden loss of passion and feeling for everything in his life, including me. Love isn't the issue here. Anyone who has ever seen us together can tell that we adore each other. But his words to me spoke very clearly that something had to be done.

"I desperately want to be able to show you the love and intimacy you're so easily able to show me," he said, "I know it's there, but I just can't find it in me. And that's not fair on you. I'm going to find the strength I need, and then I'll be back."

I hope that's all it will take, but even that is going to be difficult for him. Vaughn, as I have known him, is a man with great strength of character. He sees deeper into people than most, cares a great deal about those with whom he allows himself to get close, and goes to unusual lengths in order to show his affection. He is more than kind - there isn't a nasty bone in his body. He is generous, giving, loyal and thoughtful. He has well-thought-out opinions, and may openly disagree with you, but will never turn it into an argument. He is sweet and funny and easy-going. He truly is the most amazing, beautiful man I have ever known.

He has also spent a lot of his adult life avoiding relationships. This, combined with a general tendency to spend much of his time alone, has meant that being in a long-term relationship has brought him very far out of his comfort zone. And regardless of what being with me has given him, I think it's really taken its toll on him.

While I was listening to the pain he was in over feeling totally inadequate, two things were going through my mind:
*You have the strength to hold this together for the both of you, Angel
and
*Just let me go

I really believe that the second choice was the healthiest. If what we have is strong, time will not break it, nor erode it, nor extinguish it. But to be half of a partnership, you need to be all of yourself, whole, self-sufficient. To be able to give to another, you must have met your own needs first.

So, loving him more deeply than I have ever loved another, I have let him go. My deepest hope is that he'll find himself, and find his way back to me.

I hope.

My God, How I Love You

Every beat of my heart, i miss you.

Every fibre of my being craves you.

Each tear cried over you tastes like despair.

All my thoughts contain you.

My every waking moment is now consumed with desperate hope for your return.

I miss you. I love you. I am yours.

And I can't stop when it comes to you...

Why do i even fucking bother?!?!
Whats the point? It never goes anywhere.

Stop trying, Angel Love.
It seems it isn't worth it.
EVER.

Ugh. Religious Blogs

Could there be any more jesus blogs on here if they tried?!
I'm all for freedom of religion and
expression and shiz, but for real... Give me something interesting to read.
Which makes me wonder, are there so many music and art blogs on here that mine would get lost in the crowd?
In which case, do i make my ramblings on here more interesting, or write what i want because i know nobody's reading it?
And while I'm on the subject, way too many craft and scrapbook blogs, too.

:-\

BLUNT

Foot Spa

I'm out on my balcony enjoying the sunshine, and all of a sudden, i remember my foot spa.
You know, those things that sit in the cupboard, that present you got from what's her face, the plastic space-taker that never gets used.
So i haul it out here with all the accompaniments, foot scrub, nail polish, clippers, the works, along with my phone, smokes, and iced coffee. And i have to say, this is a pretty fine way to spend an afternoon...
So go find yours, wherever you've stored it away. (Look under the bed, or on your top shelf if you're having trouble.) Treat yourself for at least ten minutes.
Then put it away for another five years, like i probably will...
:-)

The Sad State Of Affairs in Iran

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mrldA95spQ&sns=em

PERTH MUSIC

http://groups.google.com/group/perth-music?hl=en

Here is a google group for Perth people (or those visiting perth) to share info and opinions on the Perth music scene.

Please join and read all about what's going on around Perth. :-)

MELBOURNE (my favourite Australian city)

Melbourne, Victoria, on the East Coast of Australia, is my favourite city in this fair country of ours. I first went there in 1998 for a wedding. Being driven from the airport, through the city to the house we were staying at, I was immediately struck by the architecture. It is such a beautiful city, old buildings with charm and character, trees along the streets, the trams clickety-clacking along and the tram tracks taking up space in the middle of the roads, the funny driving manouvre called a "hook turn", the fashion sense of the people treading the footpaths.
I went there again in 2005 for a business conference, unfortunately meaning I didn't get to see much, but I did get to experience Melbourne shopping, and the lust for the city continued!
In 2009 I visited twice, in May and June, and got to experience the night life, which is vast, rich, and fabulous! The locals (if you can find a nice one, it's about 50/50 I've found) will show you the good places, or you can walk around until you spy a trendy hot-spot (characterized by the massive line out front).
My last trip was this past February for my birthday, and it was as captivating as ever. Even more exciting for me, I went with Vaughn and one of my best friends, Alice, and got to play tour guide! Showing people I love around the city I love was one of the best experiences I've had. "Here's where to shop, where to eat, where to party, where to sightsee, my favourite lane, my favourite club, my favourite bar....."
Heaven.
Maybe it's the similarities between Melbourne and San Francisco (which is my favourite city in the whole world) that make me love it so, I'll never know for sure, but love it I do, with all my heart.
Hope you enjoy the pics.