High and Quiet

I've lost the ability to be angry anymore
And now I can't vocalise anything at all
The words all roll around upstairs
But the language isn't one that they understand

I think that's why I'm medicated
I think that's how I'll die...

High and quiet.

I've inflected my inner voice with an unfamiliar accent
So I won't pay it such attention
And all those things they thought I meant
Are just my clouded mind's invention

I think that's why I'm asphyxiating
And this is how I'll die...

High and quiet.

I'm off-kilter
Like a poorly folded coffee filter paper
And my saviour
Is one and the same.

I find myself fumbling on the bathroom floor
For the contact I lost with you
I'm sure it's here somewhere
But it's hard to see with all this inner blue.

There's the constant sound of a child downstairs
In my head
And she's turning on the television
And it's loud, and it's loud,
And it's hard to sleep through...

You (Plural)

I dream about you twice a week at least
Can't get you out, can't get you out, can't get you out.
It's a head fuck every time I wake up
It's not something I wanna talk about.

I got this feeling
It just won't quit
I can't get over it, or

You

I think about those times we shared a whole lot
Cant shut you out, can't shut you out, can't shut you out.
You're renting space in me you just won't pay for
It's not something you wanna talk about

I got this heartache
It just won't do
So tell me who are

You

Who are you to make this mess and walk away?
Who are you to punish me for something I just didn't
Do

You

There's nothing I can say
And this pain won't go away
I guess you're here to stay
Even though you're gone...

Just Like You

Yeah, she sat me down one day and said
"Don't you want more than this?"
She had a clipboard in her hand and a twin set
And I thought to myself, "Did I leave the iron on when I left this morning?"
Guess I need some help with my mindset.
I spend most of my days in nothing
And nothing's what I'll be
If I don't get outta me.

It's all talk talk talk
In my day-to-day living
Giving a chance to the hopes I've got
And the folks back home.
And I'm feeling fine
Most of the time
But then I talk talk talk
And I'm on my own again.

Yeah, she had that look on her face when she said
"Isn't this a little bit, kind of, exactly like it was the last time?"
And I replied with a gleam in my eye,
"Why yes, it certainly seems to be."
With the hamster wheel going round and round in my mind
I spend most of my days in silence
And silent's what I'll be
If I don't get outta me.

It's all talk talk talk
In my day-to-day living
Giving a chance to the hopes I've got
And the folks back home.
And I'm feeling fine
Most of the time
But then I talk talk talk
And I'm on my own again.

I don't know where
I am going
Alls I know is
I'm not showing
Half of what they
Told me I had
Back when things weren't
Quite so bad.
This is what they
Tell me to be
More like them and
A lot less like me
Yes I need help
To fix the damage
But I've taken all
I can manage

Yeah, she showed me to the room with all the others
And she said, "They're all just like you"...

CEASEFIRE

Today, yes
Tomorrow, no
How far will this go?
If it's all too much
And not enough.

Will you?
Won't you?

I started something
I can't complete
Without you.
And it's too intense
For my defences.

Will you?
Won't you?

All's fair in love and war
Let's ceasefire
This pointless game.
What are we fighting for?
Please cease fire
Or take your aim.

Judging on what you've given
I've asked too much

Will you?
Won't you?

Do you want to?