Lately

This depression I've sunk into is shithouse.
I overhauled my life, nothing changed.
I thought I had my relationship sorted, but I'm left guessing most days.
Doctors tell me there's nothing wrong with me physically, despite all of my symptoms.
My finances are in dire straights, even after I've moved to a smaller and cheaper house.
My band is terrific, and its the only thing really working for me atm, although there are small peaks of hope on the horizon.
I need a change, something bigger, something drastic.
I don't want to feel like this any more.